I ran another 5k today
managed to finished in 34 min
same time like before
gosh it feels soo good
especially after I contemplating to stop after 3km
but I didn't
I finished it

I feel good
a month ago
it takes me 30 min to do 3k
now I can do it in 18 min

my goal now is to improve my time
to do 5k under 30 min

also I want to increase my running mileage
at least 20km per week
either 4x5k or 3x5k+ 2x3k


and I must to do strength before doing my run
I blame the gym
it started to get packed in the evening too
I am totally uncomfortable to do strength in front of those man

oh I think
I am addicted to running

when I run
it is the only time I feel nothing
it is just my empty mind
and my feet running

and that is why I like running

but even after my daily dose of endorphin
I still plagued by the grief
when I woke up to empty bed
or staring at lonely phone

and even running can't save me
from this horrible feeling

no matter how hard I shut I shut it off
it still there
eating me from the inside

I miss him

Im running 5k now.
my best time currently now at 34 min
Im trying to clock at least 20km per week in my effort to improve my running mileage.

I see some benefit already
although my weight doesn't budge much
but I feel kinda smaller already
managed to fit into some of my old clothes
hah!!

but I still believe in number
I still have around 5 kg to lose in 3 weeks.
can I make it?

let's work for it

it is such a tough run today
i am actually competing with myself

before i sleep
i make resolution to run 5k in the morning

i found my base actually
ease myself then start to increase the pace
then almost halfway there
i start to have war with myself
it is crazy

i am pushing myself
not by running faster
but by asking myself to keep running
and that is the hardest part

i know i am not fatigue
but the desire to stop is sooo great
it almost consume me

but i didnt stop
it was such an emotional feat
when i manage to finished with 34 min
3 min faster than my previous 5k

i am soooo proud of myself

and i know
i can keep winning
againts battle of negative me

and i will always prevail

managed to run for 20 min
at 2.42 km only
tak larat dah
after almost 4 days not running
feel really sluggish

tomorrow is free day
so I can spend time to do double workout in the morning and evening
maybe do some swimming too

i am more anxious about weight gain more than anything

have morning run today
nice one

i feel so much energy

bangun tidur
drink one cup of coffee
then straight ahead to the gym

and managed to run 4.1km within 30 minutes
not so bad

cuma now how to push myself to do 5km run
rasa cam susah sangat
padahal larat je
tp still, mcm nak stop jugak

why is that?

next time need to do weight training first
baru cardio
baru burn more fat

ntah rasa cam gain weight jek nih
3 more weeks
kalau naik jugak
detox diet laa nampaknyaaa

nice run today.
manage to do 4.16km in 31min according to my Nike+
average pace is a 7'16"
yeah im that slow

dalam runner forum suma pace around 4'
bila laa nak capai tuh
skarang aim to do as much km as I can in 30min
sbb mesin kat gum tu xleh setup more than 30min
bongok jek siap Ada limitation
padahal bukan Ada orang pakai tradmill tu.

then buat arm workout
rasanya kena increase load
8lb x rasa hapa dah

pastuh Im on bike for another 15 min

kesimpulannya
very nice workout today
sbb tuh suka pergi gym petang
more time for myself

anyway
berat skang still at 69.8kg
minggu ni xde turun pun :(
blame it on my period
demotivate sgt

I have 5 more week to reach my target
now mmg kena make sure 1kg weight loss per week.
travelling for LI visit sure add some stress
tp at least my hotel got gym and pool.
so bleh buat double workout on travelfree day

kena remind myself
choose right food
and make sure I am eating

baru bleh turun berat